I’ve felt compelled to write a blog to catalogue the journey I’m beginning to embark in. I don’t know what is coming in the days and months ahead, but I can feel that it’s something big. Every time something new happens that is a new discovery or step further in my journey, I am realizing that these milestones are starting to blend together and I don’t want to forget what has brought me here, or where I’m going. And so I must write.
It all started a couple of months ago. Well, maybe before that with seeds planted, but I only truly let go in January of 2017 in the biggest way.
For personal reasons I won’t devulge on the catalyst that changed it all, but I will say that what it did was allow me to let go. Let go of the pain, let go of the fear, trust in divine intervention, trust in the Universe…trust in Myself.
I opened up and let down the walls around me.
You see, my daughter was born in July 2016, and when she was things started to change within me gradually. I don’t know exactly when my revolation about my photography business took place after her birth, but it suddenly dawned on me that I needed to be photographing families in lifestyle and storytelling settings. I realized the only things that matter are the memories and relationships that we share with the people we love most. I’ve become obsessed with the beauty of life and the beauty of the love that we have inside ourselves. The celebration of love in the most real way possible has become my truth, and not only do I need to be photographing families in their real lives in order to honour that, but I will give my subjects the opportunity to share their truth in the process by capturing their most authentic family dynamic.
It was like this bolt of lightening; YES! It is so clear, so obvious! I know this is my path and I will succeed. For the first time I don’t feel unworthy of success, or just another photographer of many. For the first time I’m not making my choices based on what is selling among others now, or what I think people like. I’m just following my heart and because of that the insecurity is gone. You can’t go wrong when you are clear about your passion. The Universe will always root for you to follow your dreams and as long as you trust that with everything inside you then there is no way you can falter.
The moment I realized what I must do I truly felt that I was already accomplishing it and already successful. They say that when using the Law of Attraction to get to where you want to be that you must feel that you have it in every way. Visualize, get excited, and truly trust and know that you’re not only going to get it, but since you’ve made that intention, in terms of energy, you already have it! This is all well and good in theory, and the amount of times I’ve “tried” that with no prevail can’t be counted. This time was different. It’s like it wasn’t even me who decided on this photography venture. It was bigger than me. And I had to trust it because something that wasn’t my own inner voice kept telling me that there is nothing to question. For the first time in my life, the law of attraction became effortless.
Fast forward to January and my catalyst. Sure there was no doubt about my ambitions for storytelling photography in the Fall, but I was still stuck in my old routine and old business projects that were already in motion. Despite my optimism for my future, in the present moment I was stressed beyond belief; struggling to juggle my new motherhood with my business ambitions, and feeling more and more disconnected from my husband by the hour. But this particular weekend breathed Life back into my lungs and into my home. This was the moment I chose happiness and this was the moment when the Universe began to provide in every way.
This blog is going to be about my journey as the Universe walks with me in discovering my highest potential in my career, my family, and love. It will also be about the Spirituality that comes with trusting the Universe and how my Spiritual growth will evolve because I have a feeling I’m at the tip of the iceberg.
In my next post I’ll talk about what my next steps were to be true to myself and focus on achieving my happiest self. I will tell you about the first small manifestations that began to roll in and how my spirituality and self exploration has evolved in the process of it all!